It doesn't help that I wast doing right for the past few days. The conviction given to my graciously by holy spirit is telling what I need to do in order to not feel this way. My mind is just all over the place and I just want very badly not to feel like this because I know for certain my not having this job will hurt me that much more.
Prayer
A lot of time I come to you asking you for forgiveness for the sins of my doing. Never really noticing how deceitful I can be. I have perverse way with in me. A tendency to want to cut corners and work around what is required. You are God who is able to make me fit. Fit not just physically but occupationally. I am asking that remove that perverse way from my mind, my heart and money. Cleanse my spirit of that foul way of thinking and bring me back to honoring you.
Lord lead me. I know you wont put me in a situation that I cannot handle. Help me be smart enough not to put myself in situation that I cannot handle. I am grown and understand that there things I can set into motion that it would be to my benefit that you do not stop. However unpleasant that is to think about. Not my will but yours be done. I trust and surrender to your judgement.
All this I humbly pray.
