After workers meeting I have been having very deep experiences. Only deep because I was able to spent a lot of time with my savior. My love is being rekindled in way I could not even imagine.
So a few days ago I spent sometime worshiping during my morning routine. The lord spoke " You need increase your time with me." "You currently give me only ten percent of your money and your tithe has to be more than that. You are sitting at a soft 9%, I want a 25% of the same time you spend of with work."
I gawked at the thought of the time but as I began to talk to myself about what the lord commanded. I started seeing what he was saying to me. On average I spend about 17 hours up a day. So the issue of me not having enough time doesn't make sense. Especially if he is only asking for 25% of your work day.
I am a math man so I look at it like this
9 hours = 540 mins
25% of 540 mins = 135 mins
135 mins = 2 hour 15 mins
Comparatively speaking I have known my wife for 7 years. And we have spent less than year together total. No more can I be frustrated about where my relationship is not, I cannot be upset when my relationship with my savior isn't right and I spend 3 hours a week with him.
In fact its amazing what 10 mins in his presence does to us.
As I talked myself into critically look at my day and how I spend it I came up with this.
I need to put my time in with my savior. He deserves it. If I can spend an two hours on the game and cant stand to be in Gods presence for an hour then I am not worthy of him.
Prayer
Lord, you have spoken and I heard you. And instead of saying yes, I rationalized it. Please forgive me my precious savior. I repent of you inquiry to spend time with me. I say Yes to your loving embrace. I choose you. Jesus, I choose you.
Your Son.
Wednesday, March 23, 2016
Tuesday, March 15, 2016
Feeling a Little Lit
Time has been kind of flying by. Its March now and my birthday is in 8 days, my anniversary with my wife of 2 years is in less than 3 months and in less then then 2 months Ill be having my first child.
WOO!
There is so much going on. The wife parents are going through my parents are trying to get stuff up and running. It seems like everyone is try to get it together. The thing that makes me a little lit is when people try to direct your life the way they want you to go.
The only person that holds all the cards is me and my wife. I wasn't the kind of man that left or leaves my responsibility to others. I have never been that kind of man that passes off what I need to do to someone else because I can handle it. If anything I was the person who hated to give up when I should have been given up.
I was told along time ago. There is no honor in being blamed for something you did not do. I was told that in relation of trying to take blame for something that was not mine so I could feel bad about how I performed. I am perfectionist's perfectionist.
But I guess I am only a little lit because I knew this day would come. I was hoping that the people near me and in my life would be wise enough to tread lightly when it comes to matter like that but apparently not.
My wife has turned over a new leaf and life situation has cause her to think differently about her biological parents. I think for the first time she sees them as people and not as her parents. We spent sometime talking about how we want Robyn to view us and how we want her to be.
I used a quote from Gandhi but I adapted a little. " We have be what we want her to do." Little did I know that would translate into something immediate and huge. I spoke highly. " We want our daughter to be reconciling, we have got be forgiving and giving of a second change." I will admit that the challenge that was posed to me made me kind of swallow my words. "I had to add but I am not willing to sacrifice my marriage, child or money to do so....."
But this goes back to the understanding that lines that are drawn are there for a reason. Its not my responsibility to erase them and hope the individuals within close contact to me don't do something that cross what used to be there. And then be magically offended like we were suppose to know that line was there.
As reflect I realize that redemption is all in process. If I or my wife is going to participate in this we will have to be on the same page. Its just a little frustrating the things that you encounter during this process. But alas I wish nothing more than this process.
WOO!
There is so much going on. The wife parents are going through my parents are trying to get stuff up and running. It seems like everyone is try to get it together. The thing that makes me a little lit is when people try to direct your life the way they want you to go.
The only person that holds all the cards is me and my wife. I wasn't the kind of man that left or leaves my responsibility to others. I have never been that kind of man that passes off what I need to do to someone else because I can handle it. If anything I was the person who hated to give up when I should have been given up.
I was told along time ago. There is no honor in being blamed for something you did not do. I was told that in relation of trying to take blame for something that was not mine so I could feel bad about how I performed. I am perfectionist's perfectionist.
But I guess I am only a little lit because I knew this day would come. I was hoping that the people near me and in my life would be wise enough to tread lightly when it comes to matter like that but apparently not.
My wife has turned over a new leaf and life situation has cause her to think differently about her biological parents. I think for the first time she sees them as people and not as her parents. We spent sometime talking about how we want Robyn to view us and how we want her to be.
I used a quote from Gandhi but I adapted a little. " We have be what we want her to do." Little did I know that would translate into something immediate and huge. I spoke highly. " We want our daughter to be reconciling, we have got be forgiving and giving of a second change." I will admit that the challenge that was posed to me made me kind of swallow my words. "I had to add but I am not willing to sacrifice my marriage, child or money to do so....."
But this goes back to the understanding that lines that are drawn are there for a reason. Its not my responsibility to erase them and hope the individuals within close contact to me don't do something that cross what used to be there. And then be magically offended like we were suppose to know that line was there.
As reflect I realize that redemption is all in process. If I or my wife is going to participate in this we will have to be on the same page. Its just a little frustrating the things that you encounter during this process. But alas I wish nothing more than this process.
Warm Feelings of Love because of Wisdom
As young man I journey a usual journey to manhood if I could even use the word usual. Every young man finds challenges when be braves the journey of manhood. Each individual has to find themselves as well as learn what it means to be a man. Not only that but gravitate to a definition that holds up again every relationship starting with his family and ending with world.
I blacked it up for you but I want to be sure you understand what is really being shared here.
Perhaps the warmest most confident message about what I could be and should be came from page to page in Proverbs. I read the book multiple times in my life both for comfort and correction. The words exchanged between parents and children in this book are eye opening and telling of what God has invest in man.
Proverbs 3
My son, don't forget what I have taught you take in on level that your heart can remember: Everything I have shown you and will show you will add health to your life. 3 Remember the mercy and truth given to you : necklace reminding you of what they have taught you; keep them on the journal of your heart: 4 If you do this you will find favor and good understanding in the sight of God and man. 5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and don' lean how you understand things in your world. 6 In everything acknowledge him, and he will make sure your paths. 7 Do be smart and slick: fear the LORD, and turn from evil ways and thoughts. 8 Be wise and submit to the Lord for will be health to your body, and as vital to your life as marrow is to your bones. 9 Honor the Lord will all you have and all that you are, it is He who made you this way so you owe it to Him: 10 All that you gave from your substance will be filled with plenty, and it will be as if you never gave it.11 My son, don't run for the LORD's whoopins'; don't get tired of him correcting you: 12 Its out of the love of the LORD that he corrects; even as I did to you because I am pleased with who are and what to say that continue.
What is worthy sharing over and over and being shared from generation to generation in this passage?
Son, God is good and he will be good to you when you honor him. His good reverberates throughout time and through out the world. This is how you take advantage of it.
As contemplate more closely I notice that not only that Solomon being exalted to get wisdom but also understand that he has time to enjoy what God has for him. That what God has for him in immaterial world has material and benefits.
Long of the short is pays to follow Christ.
13 The man that lives well is the one who has wisdom, and that man because he is wise seeks understanding. 14 What wisdom produces is better than what silve and fine gold could ever get you. 15 She, Yes I said she, is more precious diamonds : and all the things you want this woman got. 16 Sophie gives long days out of her right hand; and in her left hand she has wealth and honor. 17 Her ways are gentle on your body and your mind, and all her paths are made of peace and surety.18 She is like a tree that give shade and water in a hot desert, go get her son: Everyone that has her as girlfriend is happy. 19 Even the LORD God by wisdom setup the earth; by understanding, her cousin, he made the heavens. 20 In His knowledge separated the sevens, and the clouds drop down dew.
21 You should write and read all sound wisdom and discretion given to you: 22 They keep me live and they will do the same for you life, life in your mind and a light nice chain around your neck. 23 It will because of God's wisdom, grace and truth that you will be able to walk safely in this life, and you wont stumble. 24 When you are in your in most vulnerable state, you wont be afraid: And yea, when you sleep it will be sweet and relaxing because you have lived right before God. 25 Stuff around is going to fall in comparison to how you are living don't be afraid of how much people don't have because the truth is the reason why is because they are wicked and the ways are wicked, and even if its looks like the wicked are made to well there time will come. 26 If abide in the this place LORD will be your confidence, and he will keep your from falling.
The father in the passage is very passionate about how life tends to unfold. He is pointing out a greater more prophet reality that includes the rise and fall of man at various points. He is very particular about how God was is better than mans way and how we ought to give due deference for logical reason and as well as financial reasons. The language was money talks.
Below he begins with rules of thumb to adhere to that reflect the mercy grace and truth he was raised with.
27 Do good for everyone you can do it for,especially for those you know deserve it. 28 If you have it then you should give it, because given what was told you, you only have it because God want to have to give it. 29 Don't be contentious with your neighbor. I did that and it didnt make sense then and doesnt make sense now.
30 Do be like evil people fighting with people for no reason.
31 Don't become envioius of what people in power, who abuse other have, Abandon silly and dangerous ideas like Get rich or die tryin. 32 That method of living is spits in the face of the Creator: but his secret is with the righteous.
33 You see curse of the LORD is in the house of the wicked: but he gives and gives blessings the inhabitant and place of the just. 34 I have seen it time and time again God allows man to reap what he sows: but he gives provision to the humble. 35 The wise man will inherit the destined glory God has for them: but a fool will get shame for his foolish ways.
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