The In-Law Game

I might just be letting this get to me a little more than I should but I am so peeved right now.
I am so confused about how this in law thing works. The kind of do what they want and then call it help. I asked this man for 500 dollars to buy a bed that me and Rae need. He gawked at the thought of it and then in the next breathe this man spend nearly 600 dollars on a bed set and another few hundred dollars on other item related to the baby,

Don't get me wrong I am grateful, but I am irritated. How in the world do you expect me to believe that you are interested in helping me when I tell you what I need help with and then you decide to do something else and call it help. My guess is fairly simple at this point he is trying to setup his kingdom for the way he wants it to be.

But my sensitive side gives me a different reality. In his mind he has second chance with Robyn and I think the reality is some of that I cant do anything about but at the same time some of it I can. I wont stop anyone from helping us but I certainly don't want your help by any means.

I am just a little disgusted and confused by how this is going.

Lord,

I am going to need you to touch me. Touch my mind because I am not liking how it looks right now. Help me see who I am in the situation and help do things that reflect your love to Pa and Ma in this difficult time. I'm asking that you teach me how to be your man, not just a man, a good man, Ravens Man or man my father is pleased with. Teach me how you want me to be. Tell me who I am.

I trust you with this.

"The next three days no talking about this or to this. Watch and Pray is your assignment. Leave your assumptions at the door and enter into the spirit on the occasion of this interference. Your energy is in the wrong place your are investing in the wrong things. Turn your eyes to me and let me show you who you are."