Its a swirl of feelings that I feel in my heart right now. My grandfather Thomas Alvin Body passed yesterday. A portion of me is in grief because I missed the opportunity to present my children to him. But part of me is dry because there was not relationship with us. Four times in my life I remember being around him.
None really significant. I never had the chance to speak with him or allow him to speak to me. Which would really be my fault. But I cannot settle there unless I become bitter. Which I wont allow the root to settle in my spirit. I refuse to be tainted by such futile emotion.
So then what is my sinara given our relationship.
The same is simple.
Thank you for giving me my mother to whom I owe my life. Thank you for being shining light to help me see my way. Thank you for showing me my potential and where I can go. Your life will not have be lived in vain. I hope to honor your name in ministry.
Upset with you that we could not be closer in my lifetime. But grateful that I got to speak to you tell you where I was going.
Lord.
Help me. I am in hard place. I see the value of attending the service but I see the challenge associated with it as well. Would you provide me with wisdom and finances to do what is right. I am trusting you to guide me like you always do. You are always faithful. You are.
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