The Promise ....

 " Prosperity lies on the other side of discipline."

This message is the one that Lord gave me a few days ago has to spurned me on to keep with the fast which I have been doing horrid job of. I realize that when engaging in discipline the fight you are fighting is not so much the devil but you. Its you tell you no to things that you usually dont and the body acts funny when you do that.

My battle with myself and then battle with porn has led me to a place of tipping. It feels like I am one step away from walking away in victory or rolling back into hold habits which I am sure will be worse then before. I am not sure why I am so adverted to putting God on schedule as if I have something to do or as if it is disrespectful to Him. Its clear now more than ever if I am going to win in my relationships I am going to have to lace these good desires with intention and put actions to these feelings.

I am choosing to ignore the notions that reject legalism and religion as if they hold no value for training for notion of just going with it. Somewhere in my heart there is rebellion for all things structure and organized I guess in an effort to reject the alignment of God as religion but as relationships. The limit of God to just practices and rituals maybe a problem but to have zero is not biblical...there should be times that we observe rites and practices for the purpose of renewing the mind. The pressure of the world is consistent and does not take a break and neither should I.

Prosperity is a dirty word now. Prosperity is a meant to be an improvement of the wholes self. John says " I would that you prosper and be in good health even as your souls prospers." I wonder what he meant by soul..."the (human) soul in so far as it is so constituted that by the right use of the aids offered it by God it can attain its highest end and secure eternal blessedness, the soul regarded as a moral being designed for everlasting life.

This nature our soul prospering is not latent conversation. This is a conversation of finding not only the will of God for my life but to do so in the manner that is rewarding. The language almost is akin to  Pauls .... I beseech you brethren by the mercies of God to present yourselves  a living sacrifice holy .... that you may prove that what is that good acceptable will of God. The living sacrifice is my own will. The will is His desire for me. The proof is incline  mix with the faith to put action to it.

There then is John found saying I want you to make to God's destination for your life as you understand Christ for yourself. The word soul "psyche" man....how can it get any clearer. He is affirming Christ words...come unto me all you who labor and are heavy laden and I will give you rest for your weary souls....Take my yoke and learn of me....How do we miss this...How did I miss this.

Prayer

Lord, I apply myself to your word and your truth. You said , if you continue in my word  you are my disciples and you shall know the truth and truth shall make you free. My path to freedom is your word and discipline in your word and I will come to know you The truth and you will make me free. Liberation for this life of sin and into this life of righteousness. I give myself to you....I yield my members to you  and reckon myself to be dead indeed to sin but alive to you. Help me as I go in this journey..Give me the strength I need to lay down myself to die this morning. Awaken me in you.