Journaling

Moments of Clarity

Monday, March 23, 2020

7:50 AM

I am currently in struggle for my life. And in between these moments of fighting I have a clear enough mind to acknowledge some truth. Here recently I began to meditate on some of things that have transpired in my life.

I began to question things about but I began to evaluate the position I took.

I don’t get to choose who dies and who doesn’t. Its not up to me to determines someone fate. Whether that be the murder of my cousin or death of my grandfathers.

He is God. And I am not.

It is his choice to call his children home.

I can live in opposition to God because of it or  I go with what he lays out.

And much of the believers life is the same. There is a glaring element of God that demand us to submit and acquiesce and this is out of proper understand of his relationship to us as LORD first. We are granted the opportunity through the acknowledgment of his Lordship to become friends and close than friends. But we must never forget HE IS GOD.

A truly troubling reality when it comes to our struggles. It forces me question how much of my struggle is my struggle or just my open defiance to the creator and king. The deference measure petrified